A Quick Update

Hello, Everyone!

I know that it has been quite a while since I have made a post of any kind here.  Part of it has been the challenges with balancing work and family life, and part of it has been the fact that I have felt little inspiration with what to write.  

Although work at the prison has often been frustrating, there have been some good days.  I have been an acting Case Worker on several different galleries at least twelve times since October 31th.  Although it has been challenging at times, it has also been very rewarding for me.  Working as an acting Case Worker has come a lot more naturally for me, and has felt a lot less emotionally and spiritually draining to me.  Instead of almost always coming home tired, exhausted, and even angry because of work, I have come home tired by at least content.

Part of the reason why I have volunteered to be an acting Case Worker is for a change of pace, but also to help me with applying for Case Manager.  For those who might not be familiar with what a Case Manager does within a prison, so I will try to quickly explain it.  A Case Manager deals with an Inmate's programming, classification, with where they can live, with conducting Unit Disciplinary hearings (for minor rule breakage), etc.  

Several months ago, I applied for Case Manager for the prison that I work at, and at another one.  The feedback that I received from four different people, two at each institution amounted to:  "Your answers were exactly what we were looking for," "You did a very good interview," and "Please, do apply again when the job re-opens in the future."  In one case, I missed the point cutoff by only two points.  The significant part for me was the fact that I had no Unit experience at that point, only Custody Staff experience.  While there is some overlap in what we do, especially in security and safety, the actual role is a bit different.

Well, I did re-apply for this position at the same two institutions as I had a few months ago.  This time, though, I had a lot more confidence in my answers that I gave them.  Although many of the questions were the same, there were some different ones.  But, I was able to successfully answer their questions.  And, based on the feedback that I observed, I seemed to have impressed the two interview boards as much as, or even more than last time.

I should know by the end of this week for one institution and maybe at the beginning of next week for the other.  Although I have been looking at transferring to another institution, I have come to the conclusion that it would probably be better to continue working at my current place of employment.

Not only have I build a positive relationship with staff, but also a very positive rapport with the Inmates.  What’s also very interesting is that most of the Inmates that I have worked with as an acting Case Worker seem to have made a successful transition from me being in a Custody Staff role to being in a Unit Staff role.  This has really helped me with getting things done.  Because of this rapport, it would probably help to stay at my current institution.  Although some Inmates might have a different time adjusting to my new role, I think that many of them will not.

For those know me well in real life, or have followed me for quite a while, you know how much I have not liked my job as Custody Staff.  Although I can do that job very well, it is a role that brings little satisfaction to me.  And, as an INFJ, job satisfaction is extremely, extremely important.  Without significant job satisfaction, I feel miserable.  However, the impression that I have that, as a Case Manager, I would be utilizing my natural gifts and ministry training, which would lead to significant job satisfaction.  If being a Case Manager is anything like being an acting Religious Coordinator (which I did several years ago), even a bad, extremely hectic day will give me significant satisfaction.

Other news…  My daughter was officially diagnosed with having Influenza A.  My wife had a brief flare-up.  And, since I have been taking care of her for several days since she first came down with it Monday, my temperature has peaked at about 100.6 F.  So, no work for me tomorrow.  I have noticed that God has graced me with a very strong immune system.  Over the years, I have noticed that what ever bug my family gets, I will often get.  However, the time that I am actually sick is about half of long they were sick.  So, it doesn’t surprise me that my temperature spiked this afternoon.  But, I should be back to normal temperature tomorrow and back to work on Friday.  As long as our son doesn’t get sick, the bug should be out of our systems well before Christmas.

Speaking of Christmas…  We will be celebrating Christmas here in Nebraska next week.  Since my wife works as a teacher’s aide, she will have the next few weeks off.  I, on the other hand will have to work.  However, due to the days off that I have, I will be home for this Christmas.  That is something that we are really looking forward to.

With wherever you are, I hope that you have a wonderful Christmas and a blessed New Year.  I will try to write at least once more before Christmas and the New Years, but I can’t guarantee it.

In Christ,

RC

Improper Proceedings

There are many things on my mind this morning that I feel the need to discuss.  And, instead of going my original route, I am changing directions, slightly.  I am writing and editing this on my phone, so please bare with me.

I am extremely unhappy with President Trump's recommendations for Chief Justice, Brett Kavanaugh have been handled.  Quite frankly, the proceeding are being made into a disgusting circus by many people in the Senate and in the media (plenty of shame to be shared by all).  But, what are the facts?

In talking with my wife, I have learned that the woman who "made the accusations" against Kavanaugh had originally written a letter to Sen. Dianne Feinstein's office expressing memories from decades ago concerning an event that happened, but she was not sure of all of the details.  Mrs. Ford neither was wanting to go public, nor was she making criminal accusations.  And, instead of Feinstein talking privately with Mrs. Ford and/or just giving the letter to the FBI, before the public proceeding, and let them investigate to confirm or deny that something had happened.  Instead, she tosses it out, during the public hearings, and starts dragging everybody in the mud.  Dragging Mrs. Ford and Kavanaugh both in the mud.

Now, as a reminder, I have been a Military Police Officer (MP) for just over 10 years.  My training has been on the importance of thoroughly investigating a person's accusations concerning a crime, taking witness statements and evaluating physical evidence, to determine if: a) was a crime actually committed?, and b) What does the physical evidence show?  

A few years ago, I was the investigating officer for a traffic accident that happened on a military base during a deployment.  The initial evidence only indicated that some of the guards had heard a vehicle collision and that a concrete barrier had been damaged, as well as moved a significant difference.  No vehicle was specifically seen hitting the barrier, just the evidence that it had been hit.

Only because I knew the color of the vehicle and the approximate location of the vehicle damage did I have much to go on.  And, that evidence proved to be very helpful.  Only one vehicle on the base matched the color and location of the damage.  But, with further investigating, many interviews, and many hours analyzing the facts, I tetermjnedtwo things.  One particular Soldier was confirmed to be the driver during the accident.  I also discovered and documented how his Chain of Command had (unintentionally) set him up for failure.  Because the evidence and my investigator's notes where handed over the the Unit for any disciplinary proceedings, I do not know what the results were.  The big thing to take away is that I learned a lot simply by examining the physical evidence, talking with the various witnesses, sorted through the facts, opinions, and speculations, and came to very specific conclusions.

In a case of sexual harassment, especially an event that happened decades ago, determining all of the facts is very, very difficult.  Unfortunately, it can often come down to a "he said, she said" situation without any supporting documentation or physical evidence.  So, without credible witnesses, independly interviewed, can support the accuser, there is not a whole lot that can be done legally.

Now, I do agree with my wife that a harassment 'crime' had been committed, though possibly it was done unintentionally because someone had been under the influence of drugs and/or alcohol, and made worse decisions than what he many normally had made.  However, all of the evidence that I have heard discussed does not support the accusations. 

To be honest, I think that the greatest victim right now is not Kavanaugh, but Ford.  Why?  Mrs. Ford had written her Senator, Feinstein, about some concerns about Kavanaugh that she had.  But, these concerns were solely based on her memories that she wasn't sure of.  She knew something had happened to here whole in college that negatively impacted her emotionally and, I would argue also spiritually.  But, she couldn't remember many details.  And, again, this was before the public hearing.  From a Law Enforcement perspective, I believe that Feinstein was grossly negligent with how she and her office has handled it.  Unfortunately, some Senators and many in the media, are grossly, grossly mishandling the situation.

Think about it this way...  How would you like it if you shared some concerns about someone else in private, in confidentiality, especially something you were not 100% sure on, and then that person used your confidential and private information for their personal agenda?  Myself?  I would be absolutely furious!  I would probably go so far as taking that person to court for breach of confidentiality, unethical behavior, slander, and possibly other charges.  And, I would at least consider similar charges against specific people in the media, too, for aiding and abetting, if I felt that the evidence and overall situation warranted it.  

As a Law Enforcement professional, I would be legally responsible for investigating any accusation concerning a person wellbeing (like child abuse, rape, murder, self-harm, etc.).  Such situations would require me to determine in n, through interviews and examining physical evidence, to determine if a crime has (or very likely will) take place, the actual seriousness, and what I can do according to current laws, status as, regulations, etc.  Has that actually happened in this situation?  Personally, from what I know, I seriously doubt it.

Challenging Times

I apologize ahead of time if the grammar or spelling is off.  I am doing this entry via my smartphone and cannot guarantee how well it will come out.

I am currently on vacation, though it is mostly a 'stay-cation' since I will be home for most of it.  But, a break from work is just that, a break from work.  And, considering just how stressful and draining my work is, it is very much a greatful break!

And, I am still job hunting.  Come the end of this month, I will have a total of eleven years with the Nebraska Department of Correctional Services.  Though it is very steady employment, I am ready for a change.  I am prayerfully looking for a ministry job that isn't too far from our current location.  Though I am looking at other possibilities, ministry is my heart's de sire.

Speaking of ministry....  I will be starting a Bible study at my church on Purpose Driven Church.  Because of all the new changes in our church, including a new building and new pastor, we are prayerfully seeking God's guidance with directions in ministry.

I am currently at 17+ years with the US Army, most of it has been with the Nebraska National Guard.  Four years of Active Duty, four deployments (three combat deployments to Iraq), etc., it has been quite a trip.  And, I am feeling it most every day.  Not fun...

This past weekend, my family went to Kansas for a family reunion.  It was a great time, although my back started acting up, painfully so.  Had to cut the trip short because of it.

In spite of the challenges, I am trying to keep my focus on Christ.  It is not easy, let me tell you!  But, strive I do...

Some Memories

I have been reflecting on quite a few things these last few weeks.  Quite a few I have shared with my family, especially with my kids.  One of the big things that I have shared with them are the cartoons that I grew up with.  Unfortunately, though, some of them are harder to find than others.

There are several cartoons that I have shared with my kids that I have been able to find.  One of them being ‘Garfield and Friends.’  It was a show that I enjoyed as in my teens and early adulthood.  In fact, I still enjoy watching Garfield cartoons (including modern ones), and rereading some of the older cartoon strips.

Another show that I have shared with my kids, but they have not taken too much of an interest in, is in Magnum PI.  I have at least 4 seasons on DVD and still enjoy many of the episodes.  Just like with the current series that my family enjoys watching, CSI, Magnum PI lasted for many seasons because of their rich combination of actors that complimented each other extremely well, and some really good writers.

There are several shows that I have not been able to find on YouTube, though.  The version of Superfriends that I grew up with is one.  Not the one with ‘Wonderdog,’ but the one with the ‘Wonder Twins’ who could ‘activate’ their superpowers via verbal command while physically contacting each other.  (This was usually done via touching their index fingers, though other ways were done, too.)  It was a show that I grew up with in the late 70’s and early 80’s.  Another one during this time was ‘Thundarr, the Barbarian.’  With this particular show, I can find the opening credits and several commentaries on the different episodes, but not the episodes themselves.  Though ‘Thundarr’ was not my favorite cartoon growing up, it was one that I did enjoy a lot.

Some other memories that I have shared with my family and on this blog are my memories of traveling, especially in Europe.  Though I have traveled to many places throughout the United States and have very treasured memories from those travels, I more often talk about my travels to Europe.  Why?  Good question…

There are two reasons that I can come up with off the top of my head that I will share hear.  One of them is because of who much my experiences in Europe have impacted my life.  Let me start off with sharing one of my more humorous moments!

My parents had already visited Europe, primarily in Germany, because my Dad loves genealogy and his family comes from Germany.  While I was about 7 years old, and while we were living in Kansas, my parents started taking German at a night class.  My Mom eventually stopped going, but my Dad continued to attend.  While I had not interested in learning the language per se, I did enjoy learning some words and phrases over the years.  Basic questions, how to count, etc.

Fast forward to age 14, and I finally was able to visit Europe with my parents.  Needless to say, I was extremely excited!  My Dad had suggested to me that I sleep on the plan instead of staying up and watching the movies and eating the meals.  Being the typical teenager, I elected to stay up.  Needless to say, the consequence of that decision was being extremely tired upon our arrived in Germany.  So, I slept for a while in the car.

When we stopped later that afternoon at the hotel that we were going be staying, we decided to have lunch.  There were at least 6 or seven of us at the time (several friends and classmates of my dad traveled together), so we had one menu for every two people.  A friend of the family, Sandy, initially received a menu.  Being the hungry teen that I was, I snatched the menu from her had so that I could order something to eat.  I looked at it, but then angrily slapped the menu onto the table and said, “I can’t read this!”  It was, of course, in German!  Talking about culture shock! 

But, I overcame this experience within a day or two and was able to greatly enjoy my time there.  In fact, it was because of these experiences, falling in love with the food, the culture, the food, the landscape, the food, the history, the food, the castles…  Did I mention, ‘the food?’  Because of all that, I was inspired to learn the language with the intent of learning it so that I could work in Germany or travel there frequently for my work.  In fact, I went so far as to majoring in German (language, culture, history, etc.) while at Centre College.

We all memories for our experiences.  Some of them entertaining, some of them are awe inspiring, others are sad and/or painful.  But, these memories help mold us into the person that we are today.  How often do we share these memories and experiences with others to help them learn and grow?  I would encourage you to think about that.

RC

Lost in Translation

Have you ever had an experience where you tried to tell a story and someone, or maybe your whole audience, couldn’t understand why something was funny or embarrassing?  Or has someone told you a story about their childhood or travel experience that left them in stiches but left you just ‘scratching your head’ because it didn’t make much sense to you?  I’m sure that all of us have had such experiences from time-to-time.  For those of you who have traveled a lot within your own country, or especially to other countries, this is probably a familiar experience.  I know that it is to me.

This morning I had an awesome opportunity with helping to lead worship in my church.  Every year at about this time in the summer, we have Germanfest.  Because many of the people who settled here in this part of Syracuse are of German heritage, we have this festival to celebrate it.  We also have a joint worship service, too.  And it was during this joint service that I helped out.

What did I do?  I read responsive reading and the Lord’s Prayer, in German.  Of course, we had the English translation in the bulletin and on the PowerPoint.  It made for some entertaining experiences.  Instead of just jumping into the responsive reading with the German, I think I should have giving some instructions first.  It took a few moments for people to catch on, but they did. 

What was really entertaining was leading the Lord’s Prayer.  I actually gave instructions this time, that I was going to read it in German and for those in the congregation will recite it in English.  So, I read the German while they said it in English.  Well, for those who have not spoken something in a foreign language in front of people, especially while they were talking, it’s not very easy.  It is probably also the reason why I am not a professional interpreter.  That is, translating something from one language to another while people are talking. 

It got me thinking about my many experiences with languages over the years.  For those who don’t know me, I have always been fascinated by other languages and cultures.  Whether the languages and cultures are made up like the Klingons in Star Trek or the Hutts in Star Wars, I find them fascinating.  Actual languages in our world, whether modern or ancient, fascinate me as well.  Not just languages, but other cultures as well greatly interest me.

For those who do not know, I have been deployed to Iraq three different times and Qatar once.  I have also spent a significant amount of time in Europe, primarily in Germany, Holland, and the Alsace/Lorraine Valley (a region on the French/German Boarder), in the city of Strasbourg.  With each of the different experiences in each of those areas, I learned many new things about other cultures and peoples.  In fact, my favorite job that I have ever had was working in the International Zone Universal Placarding (IZUP) Office, back in 2010, creating security placards for vehicles.  These placards were needed to access the International Zone in Baghdad, Iraq, and certain areas within the IZ. 

In order to do my job, I had to interact with many different people from many different countries.  Because of my previous experiences with other cultures while in high school, collage, and in seminary, I had a lot of knowledge to draw upon in order to interact with the many different people.  For example, when the security group from one of the Asian embassies came in to have their placards renewed, I was the next available person to work with them.  Because of Asian friends that I had in the past, I knew the first thing I needed to do in order to show them respect was to bow, so I did.  This sign of respect made such an impact with this group that, when they came back on a couple of other occasions, they would always wait at the door until I was available.

Whether it is working with German, the rudimentary Spanish or Arabic that I have picked up over the years, or the biblical Greek and biblical Hebrew that I studied in seminary, I have long understood that translating things from one language to another can be challenging at times.  There are times where word or phrases translate easily.  Other times, one has to creatively interpret one idea to another.  Whether we are talking about idiomatic phrases, like ‘making a mountain out of a molehill,’ or translating prose or poetry, it can sometimes be very difficult.

Just as understanding another language can be difficult, understanding a different culture can be just as hard.  One example that I am very familiar with is the differences between American hygiene and typical Middle Eastern or African hygiene.  In most places in the Middle East and in Africa, people bathe regularly, but they do not ‘perfume’ themselves with deodorant, antiperspirant, etc.; whereas, we Americans pride ourselves on how good we smell.

It has been my experience that this ‘pride’ can be very harmful for good interpersonal and international relations.  For example, I had two friends from Africa while at Louisville Presbyterian Theological Seminary.  Because of my prior experiences, I was annoyed by their lack of deodorant, but ‘not offended.’  This was not the case with all of my fellow students.  Many of them, believe it or not, would talk disrespectfully about them when they were not around.  This was only because they ‘smell like us.’  On several occasions, I tried to help my fellow students that, although they bathed regularly, they smelled differently only because they didn’t wear deodorant.  That wasn’t a part of their culture.  Sadly, many of my fellow students didn’t care about ‘cultural differences,’ just that ‘they stink!’ 

One evening, I was in the basement of the dorm cooking my supper.  At least one other fellow student was with me at this time.  After a few minutes, while my back was to the door to the kitchen, I noticed a familiar scent and said, “Good evening ‘Paul,’ here to make supper?”  The other student, from Africa, stopped dead in his tracks next to me and said, “Ray, how did you know it was me?”  I just responded, “Lucky guess?”  In reality, over time, I realized that each of the two men had individual scents.  These different scents were very distinct.  Upon realizing this, I was soon able to recognize when either one of them came into a room.  Well, for me it was very entertaining…

Whenever I preach or do a Bible Study, I make it a point to take time understanding what the particular passage meant in the original language and culture.  Only after grasping a good understanding of how the original audience would have received and understood it do I try to interpret it for modern listeners and/or readers.  Being a person who loves learning and seeks to understand where others come from, this is natural for me.  However, I have realized many years ago that many others do not share this passion.  Therefore I make it a point to help others to understand this.

The point that I am trying to make?  Each of us have our own cultural and regional upbringings that have helped define each of us as we are as a unique person.  Our own life experiences make us unique and different.  And the culture and region that we grow up in help us to further interpret those experiences.  Because different ethnic groups, regions within a country, or even the people of other countries, do things differently, sharing experiences can sometimes be difficult.  Not only because of language barriers, but also because of cultural, ethnical, and/or religious differences.  We all have our set beliefs and biases.  We all have them.  However, to better understand others, we often have to try to understand how others believe, think, and behave.  In doing so, we show them respect for who they are.  Though this can often be challenging, maybe even extremely difficult, we should strive to do so.  Are you up to the challenge?

RC

Playing God

References:

·         Jurassic Park movie info:  https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0107290/

·         Jurassic Park franchise Web Page:  http://www.jurassicworld.com/

·         A book list of the original books:  https://www.goodreads.com/series/71966-jurassic-park

·         Quotes for Jurassic Park:  https://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/jurassic_park/quotes/

Thoughts and Reflections:

Because it’s been hot lately and since my back has not been up to doing much, my family and I had a movie-thon the last few days.  Instead of the movie-thon being on Star Wars, Harry Potter, or similar movies, the kids wanted to watch the Jurassic Park movies.  In case you are not familiar with the series, there are several books and five movies made, based on the books.  Its an interesting series, really neat special effects, and wrestles with quite a few different topics.

Although things like greed and pride are major parts of the movie, the one that I will focus most on will be the idea of ‘playing god.’  I believe that it is one of the most important themes throughout the entire series.  Other themes, like greed and pride, simply play into it.

Most of you know that we have been working with cloning for many, many years.  We have successfully cloned many different animals, including cows and sheep.  However, we have not resurrected any extinct animals, yet, via cloning.  There are many scientists today who are seeking to bring some animals back from extinction, like the dodo bird, Tasmanian wolf, and several others.  To my knowledge, though, such experiments with bringing extinct animals back to life have not been successful, yet.

In the first movie, Jurassic Park, one of the main characters named John Hammond, has created a huge park and safari with living dinosaurs.  Genetic engineers that Mr. Hammond has employed have harvested dinosaur DNA from the preserved blood from within prehistoric mosquitos, and through various techniques, have successfully cloned them.  Without giving up too much of the plot, let’s just say that because of pride and greed, things go from bad, to worse, to ‘the worst day ever!’ 

One of the main characters, Dr. Ian Malcolm, (who is a mathematician who specializes in the ‘chaos theory,’ makes two very interesting and intriguing comments.  The first one is:  “God makes dinosaurs, God destroys dinosaurs.  God makes man, man makes dinosaurs, dinosaurs eat man…” and “Your scientists were so preoccupied with whether they could, they didn't stop to think if they should.”

Even though it would be incredibly awesome to having living dinosaurs, is it really a wise idea to have it?  Would we be able to coexist with them without one causing great harm to the other?  Would it be ethical to bring them back after they became extinct millions of years ago?  Would bringing the dinosaurs back now create irreparable harm to our environment?  Would the competition between the dinosaurs and other, established animals and fauna, becomes disastrous?  Would you be able to actually keep the dinosaurs on a ‘preserve,’ and keep them healthy?  Would our environment, including temperature, current fauna, oxygen levels, etc., be able to sustain them?

As one watches all of the movie series or reads the books, this major theme continues to be discussed.  And it becomes the most important thing in the movie, Jurassic World.  In this movie, those in charge of the cooperation InGen, which created the dinosaurs throughout the movie series, builds a ‘custom dinosaur.’  The ‘Indominus Rex’ has so many unexpected abilities, not just the ability to test and learn, that it spells certain doom for so many people.  This custom-made dinosaur was created solely because the scientist were told to make something ‘bigger and grander’ than before.  Why? So that more people will come to the theme park of Jurassic World, that the theme park will ‘become relevant again.’  The custom-made dinosaur is named ‘Indominus Rex,’ and because they used DNA from so many different kids of reptiles, it has abilities that no one expected.  This spells disaster for Jurassic World, and causes the deaths of many, many people.

As someone who loves reading, doing art, watching movies, I love creating and seeing what others create.  It is something that I believe that God has blessed us with.  However, when not used wisely and responsibly, our creative powers can be used for great evil.  For example, a person has an awesome idea for creating new product that can impact the lives of many people for the good.  But to do so, this person has to use a lot of resources, find a place to build the product, employ people to figure out how to make it in the best way, refine the process of making it, employ people to make it, etc. 

Some possible things that he or she will have to ask themselves is:  Do I want to buy an unused factory or buy unused fields or pasture land to make it?  How much will I pay people for researching and creating the product?  Will I spend money on safeguards to protect the environment or will I keep the money and hope that I don’t get caught?  Will I consider the cost of living in the area and base my salaries on that, or will I go with what ever is cheapest?  I will use the best materials available to make good, quality products; or will I use cheap products so that I can receive a bigger return?  How much will I charge for the product, and what will I base the price on?

Each of these decisions will have consequences.  Some will be more positive than others.  Some may be very negative.  There will also be short-term and long-term consequences.  Though not every variable can be evaluated, nor every outcome be seen, one still has to seriously think about them.

The decisions that we make with our time, abilities, resources, relationships, etc., say a lot about us as individuals.  We all make decisions based on our individual morals and values, even our religious beliefs.  These decisions will all have consequences, be it positive or negative.  Though people in centuries past have wanted to make decisions without accepting responsibility for negative consequences, I feel that is becoming more and more accepted today.  To want to accept only the positive and none of the negative.  To only get out that which makes me bigger, richer, more influential, etc.  But, if something has negative consequences, we want to blame someone else.  I see this with some of my co-workers, I see this in the lives of many of the Inmates, and I see then with my own children.  It is something I prayerfully try to correct within myself and in my family.  And, where possible, in the lives of those around me.  But, if we all take a little bit of time to evaluate our decisions and how it will impact others, I think we can all make a difference.

RC

Finished With It

Well, yesterday was a major milestone for me, so to speak.  I received my E6 (Staff Sergeant) in December of 2012.  In order to ‘keep’ my rank, I had to complete an on-line course and go to a school.  I was able to successfully complete the school in 2013, but it has taken me a long time to complete the on-line course.

For those who have not done an Army on-line course, consider yourself lucky.  I do not feel that many of the on-line courses are put together very well.  Even though I love to learn new things, the way some of the classes were put together, or studying things that ‘Big Army’ thinks is important, was a real struggle.

The only good thing was that the course that I just finished was an actual ‘learn at your own pace’ class.  That made it much, much better than the course I tried to take in 2013.  Now, that course was extremely difficult!

Off hand, I think that the course was called ‘Common Core,’ but I can’t remember for sure.  When I was promoted in 2012, I did so before it became a requirement for me to complete the school and online class prior to being promoted.  So, I was grandfathered in.  The school, which I attend in California, was very educational.  However, the online portion was more than a little difficult for me.  There were two reasons why it was so difficult for me.  One was because it was done like an actual college course with very specific due dates for certain things.  The second reason was because there were at least 5 different NCO (Non-Commissioned Officers) grading the course.  This became a problem with certain projects because different instructors would grade things at different times.  This made for an issue with consistency for me.

I had a very rough start to the online course because the audio would not work.  Even though I called the school that was facilitating the course, they did not have a ‘fix’ for me.  I just had to use the Close Caption (CC) feature.  Even though I was told that it was at the bottom of the screen, I could not find it.  After about a week of this frustration, while working on it at home, I finally realized that part of the screen was behind my taskbar.  So, I tried resizing and moving the screen.  To no success.  I eventually figured out how to move the task bar to the side, which solved that problem.  But, I would soon have more significant issues to deal with.

At this time, I had returned to work at the state prison after about 18 months of being away, trying to pursue a ministry career.  At first my work was pretty regular and I could make time for working on my online class.  However, within a week of actually getting started on the course, we started getting hit with a lot of mandatoried overtime.  And, since I worked 2^nd Shift (1400-2200 or 2 PM to 10 PM) and was mandatoried onto 3^rd (2200-0600 or 10 PM to 6 AM) I almost never got relieved early.  And, we were getting mandatoried 2 to 3 times a week.  Needless to say, I became chronically sleep deprived very soon, and stayed that way for almost a whole month! 

On top of this course and work, my wife and I had an almost 3 year old boy and an infant girl (about a year old).  My wife went out of her way to give me as much time as she could to focus on this online course.  But, she was burning the candle at both ends, and sometimes had to take time for herself or just sleep.  Myself?  I feel that I was burning the candle at both ends, and in the middle!  It was an extremely difficult time for all of us!

Up until about the 3^rd week of the course, the different instructors did not create a major issue.  However, when we had to create a SOP (Standard Operating Procedure) using a very specific Army memo format, this became a very big issue.  By this time, I had about two weeks to finish this SOP and participate in a discussion board (which they also graded).  Because different Instructors would grade my SOP, different things would have to be changed.  I soon had to have a fellow NCO who had already completed the course tutor me with getting the SOP ‘totally correct’ so that I could complete the first section of the course.  Unfortunately, this didn’t help me in the end.

About 10 days before the first mandatory deadline, my wife and I realized that something had to go.  Either my job (because of all the mandatory overtime), our family, or this course.  It was taking too big of a toll on all of us.  So, I wrote a memo citing my extreme situation, providing my Shift Supervisor from work’s contact information to confirm my situation, and requested to be removed from the course prior to the deadline so that it wouldn’t be counted against me.  (It was a ‘fail three times and you are permanently done’ situation.)  My Chain of Command received and forwarded the memo to the schoolhouse within about two days.  Then the school just sat on it.  I was then removed from the course, ‘failure.’  Needless to say, my wife and I were extremely irate about this!  I had not failed a military school, nor had I failed a course since my second year in seminary.  And that class was a Biblical Greek language course.

For several years, I wasn’t interested in taking an online course because of this very painful experience.  Eventually, in 2015 while deployed to Qatar, I requested to be enrolled in the Structured Self-Directed (SSD) 2 course.  I started the process in the late summer or early fall, where I would have a lot more time to focus on this course.  However, it wasn’t until within a month of me returning to the States that I was finally enrolled in the course. 

I returned from deployment to doing four 12 hour shifts, that made it harder for me to do the course, especially since I strive to put God and family first.  This made finding time to focus on the course very challenging.  On top of that, the course presentation was less than appealing. After years of taking many different Army online courses, I find the way they often present course to be irritating. (Think:  Extreme death by PowerPoint!)  I find it easier to learn by muting it and read what they say while listening to classical music.  Unfortunately for me with this course, it would ‘unmute’ almost every time it advanced to the next screen/slide.  I finally just muted my computer every time I did my online course and listened to classical music on my iPod. 

Well, after almost three years, I finally completed it.  Did I learn a lot?  Yes.  Were there things that I think were unnecessary?  Definitely!  If I were to set up a course, there are several ‘lessons’ that I could combine to help make things shorter.  There are other things that, though nice to know, I don’t think it was absolutely necessary to be included.  I honestly think it was way too long.  Now, if I was Active Duty or in a full-time status, it might have been easier to deal with.  But, as a part-time Guardsman with a full-time job (with occasional to frequent mandatory overtime) and a family to take care of, it was overly long.  But, I am finished and it is, finally, behind me.  I can now focus on other things like preparing for next years learning vacation, preparing for the upcoming Bible Study on the Purpose Driven Church, finish going through many boxes of things that we have, etc.  And, I am now able to just sit down and read without worrying about that course.  That, in itself, is a major blessing!

RC

Divisiveness

To be honest, I do not watch the news too much anymore.  Years ago, I used to watch it regularly, or at least read the news on the Internet, so that I could keep up with current events.  However, even though keeping up with current events is still important to me, I have a very hard time doing so.  Why, because almost all news outlets have a very specific political agenda that they want to expound upon, so they twist their news that way.  I know that it was always been this way, but it seems that it’s become very much more blatant in the last few years.

You are probably wondering why I feel that most major news outlets are becoming more ‘blatantly political.’  This is my perspective:  Most of the time when I watch to Fox News, CNN, local news, etc., they cover a current event, but then greatly expound on how ‘their side’ (be it conservative or liberal) is right and everyone else is ‘un-American,’ evil,, etc.  A very good example is the recent ‘unrest’ concerning illegal immigrants being separated from their parents.  If you watch CNN, CNBC, or other liberal media outlet, they only focus on ‘how evil it is’ for President Trump to allow the children of illegal immigrants to be separated from their parents. They call all people who want stronger protection measures against people entering American illegally Nazis, totally uncaring, etc.

On the other side of things, many from conservative news outlets, like Fox News, will cover the exact same issue, but call those who are liberal un-American because they want to allow criminals to enter the US and more easily allow children to be used for sex trafficking, mules for bring in drugs, etc.  Though these are valid concerns which I also share, the way they often express these issues are almost as bad as the left, or worse. 

Unfortunately, Facebook is become even more ridiculous when it comes to divisiveness.  At times, I really do feel like closing my Facebook account and being done with it.  So far I have not because Facebook is still good enough outlet for discussing things with friends.  Although tolerating the divisiveness is becoming more difficult.  For starters, I find that I have to not only hide a lot of extremely liberal posts that I do not like, but I also have to hide a lot of mean-spirited conservative posts as well.  Whether it is on the issue of gun control vs. 2^nd Amendment, abortion vs. Pro-Life, immigration issues, etc., I end up hiding at least half of the topics because of being divisive and mean-spirited.

I admit, I do not ‘toe the line’ when it comes to conservative values.  I have always held to my own moral and religious beliefs and endorse those that best parallel what I believe.  One of the main reasons why I was disliked by many of my seminary professors and fellow students was because I did not accept their viewpoints as totally valid, but did my own research and maintained my core beliefs.  That is one of the main reasons why I am not a minister in the Presbyterian Church (USA).  I do not just accept doctrine, but analyze it, compare it to what Scripture clearly says (including linguistical issues, history, and cultural context), and come to my own conclusions.  While many have respected me for my beliefs and willingness to challenge other ideas, many other have not.

I do enjoy a good discussion on issues, and I do enjoy hear other view points and learning as much as I can.  Just because I don’t agree with someone else’s perspective doesn’t mean I can’t respect its importance to that person.  Sadly, many people are of the opinion that if I don’t agree with then and endorse their opinions on whatever subject, I am somehow evil, un-Christian, un-American, what have you…  Sorry, but I cannot and will not tolerate that kind of attitude. 

Just today I had to ‘un-friend’ a person that I have known for decades.  Almost every time I discussed an issue, the immigration issues being the most recent one, he repeatedly looked down at me for my beliefs.  I definitely do believe in allowing people to immigrate to America.  My biological mother’s side were ethnic Germans who had initially emigrated from Germany to southern Russia (in what is now the Ukraine), but later had to emigrate to America in the 1880’s due to the ‘re-Russification’ of Russia.  My wife is a second generation Irish-American, and very proud of it.  Thing is, both her family and mine went through the process of coming here legally, become US citizens, and contributing productively to our new home and communities.

In my opinion, it is more important to take care of our domestic problems that it is to take care of those who come here illegally.  For example, I share two different memes on Facebook about the importance of taking care of the children of US citizens who live in poverty, American homeless Veterans, as well as our own senior citizens who have worked as productive citizens and have earned the privilege of retiring and living comfortably.  To me, taking care of our own needy have a much higher priority than those who come here illegally.  While we have a moral right to take care of those in distress with their immediate needs for food, medication, and shelter, I do not believe we have a moral obligation to take care of them for a long period of time.  And, if they want to come here illegally and/or have a criminal background, then I believe they should be sent right back to where they came from.

Although others have the perfect right to disagree with what I believe, that does not give the person the right to be grossly disrespectful.  Being told that I am ‘un-Christian’ because I do not believe that illegal immigrants need to be just blindly allowed into our country is just plain wrong.  That would be the same thing if I accused him of being ‘un-Christian’ and a ‘Nazi’ for not wanting to put our citizens first.  This isn’t the first time that this particular person has attacked me for my beliefs, but it is the last time.

Years ago, it was the norm to discuss different issues without name calling, making personal attacks, being inflammatory in our own responses, etc.  While there were exceptions to this, there was a lot more civility with most of political and religious discussion while I was growing up.  Now, people easily become enraged when others disagree with them on political issues. 

I really wonder if people really think before they post something on Facebook or write something for the news.  At this times, it seems like more and more people blindly write and post things that are purposely inflammatory.  Why?  I don’t know.  Maybe it makes them feel stronger posting such things.  Maybe they are so engrossed with their personally religious and political stances that they don’t think about how others might perceive it.  I don’t know.

What I do know is that I go out of my way to be as civil and respectful as possible.  To that end, I seek to share things that are disrespectful and mean spirited in nature.  While I know that somebody will always be offended by what I say or share.  However, I seek to be as respectful as possible.  I also seek to remove/hide all uncivil posts on my Facebook wall as I can.  I am also commenting less and less on such things because too many people are able to have civil discussions.

I believe that if all of us take a little more time and think before we act or say something, we can all do a better job.  In fact, we all take a little more time to encourage each other, to pray for each other (according our own individual faith practices) and respect other’s beliefs, we can make this world a better place for others.

RC

A Quick Update

Well, I just wanted to give all of you a quick update on my life.  It seems that I am enjoying two significant transitions in my life, all at once.  Our church is transitioning to a new pastor, and I am transitioning to a new schedule at work.  Going to be a lot of bumps in the road for a while.

In the United Methodist Church, the District Superintendent has the option of moving a new pastor into a parish every few years.  And, the church sometimes has a say in it, but not always.  Though there are pros and cons to this, it’s a part of life.  We’ve enjoyed our current pastor for over 5 years now, which is a real blessing.  Especially since he was here to help us during a really time during the life of the church, the loss of the church building to a fire.  In fact, at one point, the District Superintendent wanted to move our pastor to another church, but our congregations ‘persuaded’ him not to.  We are all thankful that he listened to us then.

I have not met the new pastor, though my wife has.  She seems to like him so far, and from what she has told me, sounds like he will do well here.  Lord willing, the transition that all of us, as a church, will have will not be too difficult.

The other major transition that I will be facing is a change in work schedule.  After a major riot at the institution that I work at several years ago, we have been working 2x 12 hours shifts, 4 days a week.  It has been very challenging for all of us.  Especially since we do not have enough staff to fully staff those shifts.  Long hours, mandatory overtime several times a week, and only getting three days off each week has been very draining on all of us.  Thankfully, several staff members from other institutions have been coming on a regular basis to help us out.  That makes things a little better.

Unfortunately, though, we have been forced to return to 3x 8 hour shifts this week.  Some staff members and administration are very happy about this.  On paper, it looks much better, I am sure, and it enables administration to potentially cover a whole shift if they have to mandatory someone (we are only allowed to work up to 16 hours in one day).  And, yes, I do understand why some would really want use to return to 8 hour shifts.

However, the problem that we will be running into is lots of people being mandatoried for overtime, potentially for a whole shift (16 hours).  When we were working 4x 12 hour shifts, we had three days off to recover.  And, many of us would volunteer to come in early and o that we would not be mandatoried for that day.  And hopefully, we would not have to be mandatoried for several days.  But now we are spread out onto three shifts and will only have two days off per week to recover.  If staff is juggled really well, the mandatory over time might not be too bad.  However, it could get really bad.

When I returned to Corrections in 2013, after being gone for about a year and a half to pursue what I hoped to be a dream career as a pastor, we went from a little mandatory overtime to being hit three to four times a week.  And, since I was working 2^nd shift, I would typically have to work the full third shift.  Needless to say, all of us were chronically exhausted for the 6 or 7 weeks that this went on for.  And, I am concerned that this will be the case again.  I may be wrong, and I do hope that I am.  I really, really do hope that I am wrong.  Your prayers for all of us would be very, very appreciated!

I am not trying to be overly negative about things.  However, if I suddenly am not on Facebook, blogging, etc., that is probably the reason why.  I will try to be on when I can, but right now, I have no idea what my free time will look like.

RC